H. D. Thoreau
I love where I am right now in my life. I love school and homework and being told that I have to read certain books. There are very few days that I am truly depressed. I may be blue or out of sorts, but it is a fleeting feeling and insignificant in the large scheme of things.
I fall in love at least eight times a day with guys I will never talk to. I am aware that, if I did talk to them, I probably wouldn't like them anymore. My life is not perfect, but it is life and it is here and it is mine.
I got the title for this post from Thoreau, who always makes me think of life a little more carefully. The direct quote is, "As if you could kill time without injuring eternity." Amazing. As happy as I am, there are people that keep asking me when am I going to get on with my life. "Get a job," they say, and "Start living." As if life begins at certain landmark moments, such as graduation, a new job, or turning 30 or 40, or whatever. We spend our life waiting to live. These "landmarks" come and go and we are eternally disappointed because it is never what we thought it would be. I felt that way when I got my undergrad degree. I was let down because I felt the same as always. Now I realize that each day I live and love what I do and where I am, I am not killing time. If I spend each day waiting for something to happen, then I guess that would be injuring eternity. Maybe, if I try really hard, I can avoid doing that.
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I get way too caught up in landmarks. I think it's because I care too much what others think of me. I feel like I have to prove myself to them. Why? Because they have more money or a higher degree than me? It really doesn't matter what they think of me. If I'm happy doing whatever it is I'm doing or opt to do, then that's all that should matter. It's easy to say that, but it's very difficult to do. Perhaps with age comes wisdom and in a few more years I won't worry so much about proving myself to any and everyone.
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