I love sunflowers. They usually stand so tall and beautiful. They usually look as if they are smiling and enjoying the sun on their upturned faces. I was walking around yesterday, and it was so incredibly hot and humid, that when I saw this flower, I thought: "This is how I feel." The heat has just sapped me of my ability to enjoy being outside, which is something I always like to do, but it is just too hot to appreciate anything other than an air conditioned room.
I am also very disappointed in myself. I was going to take the time I had off from school to lose forty pounds before I began teaching. Once again I failed to meet my goal. I have not been going to the gym or eating healthy like I know I should. I just cannot seem to gain control over my eating habits. Self-control and discipline allude me in the areas of food and exercise. I am reading a book I borrowed from Audrey about personal finance called the Total Money Makeover by Dave Ramsey. Last night I read a line that struck me as absolutely true: "The only thing stopping me from being skinny and rich is the man in the mirror." He is right. For me, rich is a distant second to skinny. Given the choice, I would chose skinny any day. So why is it that I cannot attain something so seemingly important to me? In the real, I only have myself to blame.
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I completely agree. We need a little resolve.
JP and I have decided that we have an eating disorder. However, it's the opposite of anorexia or bulemia: our problem is we can't stop eating and just can't seem to get our eating under control.
Seriously, I understand where you're coming from. Don't beat yourself up. You've lost a lot of weight over the past two years. You have a lot to be proud about. You're beautiful.
I have very little to contribute in way of advice, but I was listening to Kate Hudson doing a radio interview and she said that when she was pregnant she gained 70 lbs. She said that it was genuinely hard work to get the weight off, but she said that she was doing the work so that she could take care of herself. I think the problem is that we are too busy blaming ourselves for being the weight we are at currently to take care of our bodies. I think it is cliche to say "we need to love ourselves," but I think we need to think about our bodies as something that needs tending to. Maybe this outlook will make it easier.
You are a hot momma! If you are unhappy about one area of your life though, it inevitably will creep into other areas. Just take it one bite at a time, one extra step at a time and it will add up. My best dieting advice: jumping jacks (love em) and soup. (Being poor doesn't hurt either)
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Dollface, just wanted to say that I'm big-time proud of you for being accountable about your health. Go one day at a time and the pounds will drop. Good luck, baby. www.debtective.com
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